Year-1 Finding Husband (Feb 2016)

When I decided to give my heart to somebody that really accept me the way I am, proud of me, criticize me for my improvement, and love me unconditionally, I shouldn't be too easy to let silly things ruining us. Our journey is worth a whole lot more than one single awful moment.

Do you really need a reason to love someone? What if your checklists are complete but sometimes you just don't feel like being yourself? I think what really matters then is the way it is so natural for both of you to be the way you are, without you have to pretend to be like somebody else, and the way you accept each other.

Seeing many married couples coming from the same hometown, wondering whether I would end up the same. I am not picky, I just want to find a good husband who will live till old and die with me.

Sometimes, some relationships just don't work, no matter how perfect she/he is, how hard you try, how people think you look so good together, or how people think you meant for each other. None of them really matters. It is the feeling deep inside of you, who told you whether or not he or she is the one. And life must go on.

Suddenly I feel like there is too much drama in this country lately. I hope. I can get my husband one year later in my graduation day on Februari,2016. Aamiin :)

Happy Sunday

Aug 24, 2014.. Sunday.. in my room.. my netbook's clock is saying it's 12:10..

Last Sunday in Gombong.. HAPPY SUNDAY EVERYONE :)

I started my day with a simple prayer, of course.. then.. I wake up - pray - look around my room - go outside - drink a cup of water - go to the bathroom - look for breakfast - greet my family - sit a while... bla..bla..bla..

"God allows bad things to happen to His people only if He sees a way of turning the bad into a greater good.. "

really love this words..
knowing that God is always there to carry us,and all the struggles we're facing is only another of God's amazing way to make us grow stronger.. ",

happy Sunday everyone..

Love,

Ria

amazing love :*

There's this song that i've just learned in the past month.. it's AMAZING LOVE..

just look at the lyrics..

" I'm forgiven, because you were forsaken
I'm accepted, you were condemned
I'm alive and well, you're spirit is within me
Because you died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That you My king would die for me
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor you
In all I do I honor you

I'm forgiven, because you were forsaken
I'm accepted, you were condemned
I'm alive and well, you're spirit is within me
Because you died and rose again"

Jadi WO :)

Hmmmm... so amazing. Now,ria feel tired banget. Keluar rumah selama beberapa hari ini.

Ceritanya kemaren tgl 16-17 ayah ibu pergi ke solo buat sungkem ke mbah n mbicarain masalah pernikahan n nentuin tanggal nikah yg tepat. Alhamdulillah jatuh juga di tanggal 19 oktober. I love number 19 because itu gabungan angka terbesar dan terkecil.

Then.... seharian ria nyari batik n kebaya buat seragam keluarga besar n buat tamu undangan. Alhamdulilah udah dapet juga 3 karung. Muter2 pasar bringharjo dari jam 9-4sore. Tepaaaar banget. Naah buat beli baju ini aja ria udah abis 10 jutaan.

Then tadi pagi ria muter2 nyari gedung buat resepsi, ria mau yg paling mewah n megah. Coba ke hotel grafika, langsung cocok deh. Totally untuk hari ini untuk seragam dan gedung udah abis 20 juta.

Planning besok...
Fitting baju pengantin, nyari tukang tias yg kece, nyari katring yg murah n enak. Terus apa lagi ya?

Ternyata ngurusin acara pernikahan itu jauh lebih rempong ketimbang ngurus acara-acara kampus kayak smc,skeleyon,dll.

Gitu dulu deh cerita ria, doain ya semoga semuanya lancaaaar. Aamiin :)

Love,
Ria

'Ditembak' again.. shocked

I was shocked.. wew.. can't believe what i just saw and heard.. really.. 
kok bisa ya? y ampuuun..

Ditahun 2014 ini Ria banyak yang ngungkapin rasa sayang ke Ria. Segampang itu? weeew
Apalagi, kemarin Ria mendapat ungkapan hati dari teman seangkatan, gak nyangka banget..

Tapi, mendapat ungkapan hati dari pria manapun, aku yakin takkan membuatku goyah.
Ria tegasin nih, Ria GAK MAU PACARAN!! hehe, kalo berani langsung nikahin aja. #udahnikahinaja! ckck


just go ahead and SMILE.. 

Ria

Dad's advices

15.12 in Independence day.

2 hari ini Ria dirumah sendirian karena ditinggal ayah dan ibu mudik ke Solo padahal ini hari ulang tahun ayah. 

Hooooam, hari ini capek sekali, padahal gak keluar rumah sama sekali.huufft..

kemaren gak sempet nge'blog, soalnya sibuuuk banget *halah*. 

Iya nih Ria lagi sibuk persiapan beberapa lomba seperti International Paper Competition, Pemilihan Duta Wisata (Mas Mbak) Jawa Tengah, sibuk dagangan buku juga.haha....

trus... trus.. trus..

Ria akhir-akhir ini sering ngantuk banget.

But before I went to sleep, dad called and talked to me. He told me that I can't put my priorities together. I know,  I'm still busy with unecessary stuff.

and he said to me.. NO PROCRASTINATION.. !!!!!!!

he even made lots of sticker of 'NO PROCRASTINATION'words.. hahahaha.. thanks,dad.. i appreciate it.. :) i'm trying to be a better person, thanks for all your advices.. :D 

Love you.. :***

i know.. i know.. i need to be more mature and sets my priorities..

i have to work hard.. and i want to learn..

i hope you guys are too.. :)

owh ya.. anyway.. from reading all the books that dad told me.. i've learn to accept things that people say about me, even if its good or bad.. :) and try to fix those mistakes.. i need to be humble, and break myself before God.. :)

Love Allah. Love my family. Love my friends.

always,,

Ria 

Eid Mubarak's pictures :*

Miss Solo :*

Location : My room @home

Country : Gombong,Kebumen,Indonesia

Time : 14.00 -- Aug 13,2014

hey..hey.. 

hmmmm..

So here i am.. setelah sekian lama meninggalkan dunia blogging, i'm back and today i just feel like i wanna write something here.. :)

I've learned so much being here and got closer to God, even though i miss my friends so much.. :)

It's been raining for couple of days and somehow i really miss Solo..

SOLO..

i miss it's nice cool sunny weather.. well, it rains also sometimes, but i LOVE the rain there..

i miss the nice becak and dokar..

i miss my Halwa Kos.. :( :( hikz..

i miss my mawar..

i miss my friends in Oragastra..

i miss nisa, nadia .. 

I MISS SOLO..

BUT,,

now.. right here.. right now.. i'm learning to be a lady.. a more mature woman.. *halah*..

God,, i really need You in my life to guide me and strengthen me.

Bless you all..

Update (H-2weeks end of the holiday)

Location : My room @home

Country : Gombong,Kebumen,Indonesia

Time : 13.08-- Aug 13,2014

WOOOOW,..

when did I last open my blog,huh?? hahaha..

it's been AWESOME holiday. So many that i've experience, so many things i've learned.

I learned to be grateful, to appreciate people, and most of all to fall more and deeply in love with Allah. it's amazing.. :)

I used to feel lonely and lost if i don't have anyone beside me or to accompany me.

Always with my parents all day in holiday make me so happy. They're all I needed. Spending time with them is something that i treasure so much.

I learned to work hard because my parents always taught me to always work hard in my whole life. I work hard in holiday. I even have a special alarm that always reminded me to work hard. My alarm said "work hard, work hard, work hard !!!" often reads aloud. haha....

My activities in the morning is cooking, washing clothes, sweeping, etc. I help parents work hard to trade until afternoon. afternoon and evening I learned and make my masterpiece until 3 am normally. It's exciting actually.haha.. I learn to appreciate people more and to respect what they're doing.

Deep inside my heart, i miss my life back my campus when i was still in home. I had everything in there. I had my family "mawar", my friends, school, anything I want.. and it was just the perfect life I want.. :) 

by the way, I turned 21!!! haha.. awesome birthday in this year, in aug 22 later!! with awesome family in home!! hehehehehehe.. time flies so fast.. too fast now.. 

I really don't know what to say anymore. I don't really know if anyone ever reads my blog too or not. hehe.. but I just want my writings to encourage you all and to live a life that's meaningful. don't waste any time. It's a fast fast life. don't take it for granted.. :)

Love :)

Ria

Atau masa lalu yang mengecewakan

Location : My room @home

Country : Gombong,Kebumen,Indonesia

Time : 21.24 16/07/2014

Seakan terjebak dalam masa yang sudah tidak berhak aku miliki. Aku begitu mengkhawatirkanmu, takut kalau masalaluku dapat berbuat kejam terhadapmu. Membuatmu merasa terluka adalah hal yang tidak aku inginkan terjadi padamu. Tahukah kau, bahwa aku telah menggadaikan seluruh waktuku hanya untuk memastikan bahwa masalaluku tidak menyentuhmu, tidak sedikitpun melukaimu. Aku bahkan pernah menghabiskan satu hari penuh waktu yang kupunyai hanya untuk ikut pergi bersama penyesalan terhadap masalalu. Sia-sia saja, tidak ada yang bisa aku lakukan bahkan sekedar memperbaiki pada bagian endingnya.

Jika aku berdiri didepanmu sekarang, jika kau melihatku saat ini, apa yang akan kau katakan kepadaku? Paling tidak tolong terangkan padaku ditempat mana kau minta aku berdiri. Jika kesalahan masalalu yang kulakukan begitu penting menurutmu, jika hal itu sungguh-sungguh mengecewakanmu, maka maafkan aku karena akan selalu mengecewakanmu sampai kapanpun. Maafkan aku karena aku tidak akan pernah sanggup lagi menggadaikan waktuku dimasa sekarang untuk memperbaiki masalaluku, aku tidak akan pernah sanggup menggantikan harapan seharga penyesalan. Tidak lagi. Bukankah terhadap masalalu seseorang hanya bisa mengenangnya? Bukankah terhadap kesalahan yang tak tertebus seseorang hanya bisa meminta maaf? Aku rasa itulah tujuannya Tuhan menciptakan manusia dengan hati yang sanggup memaafkan, sekalipun terkadang hal itu menjadi hampir mustahil.

Tetapi jika kau memintaku berdiri sebagaimana aku yang sekarang, maka ijinkan aku memohon satu permintaan untukmu, jangan panggil bayangan masalaluku dalam langkah-langkah kau bersamaku. Terimalah aku yang bisa menggenggam lenganmu dan berharap dengan itu mampu menguatkanmu, terimalah uluran tanganku yang dengan itu membuatku merasakan dukunganmu, jangan lukai hatimu dan hatiku hanya dengan sekelumit kisah tentang masalalu.

Aku sedang tidak memintamu melupakan begitu saja kesalahanku. Aku hanya tidak ingin siapapun terluka. Mengingat kembali kesalahan itu hanya akan membuat semua orang terluka. Jika kau masih menginginkanku, biarkan aku bersamamu tanpa episode itu. Aku tidak memaksamu.

Barangkali waktu memang terlalu kejam

Location : My room @home

Country : Gombong, Kebumen, Indonesia

Time : 20.48 16/07/2014

Aku bukan tipikal orang yang mempunyai pesona terhadap kebanyakan orang kecuali mungkin…ehm…”masalah”. Aku tidak tahu bagaimana hal itu terjadi, tetapi setiap waktu aku menjumpai masalah bahkan saat aku sedang tidur.

Tahukah kamu apa yang aku jumpai setelah bertahun-tahun menjadi bayangan “masalah”? bahwa masalah terkadang tidak selesai karena waktu sangat kejam. Bukankah kau juga merasakan betapa tidak adilnya waktu ketika hal-hal yang membuat hidupmu lebih indah terlalu cepat dimiliki masalalu. Kau akan merasa iri terhadap dirimu dimasalalu yang masih mempunyai hal yang kau anggap berharga itu, yang sekarang tidak bisa kau genggam, yang sekarang hanya sanggup berenang-renang dalam bayanganmu. Bukankah itu melukaimu? Jika benar kau merasakan ini, hal ini adalah temuan pertama yang juga aku alami: hal yang menyenangkan dapat saja menjadi menyakitkan ketika kelak hanya bisa dikenang.

Lalu, bagaimana dengan hal yang membuatmu terluka dan sekali lagi waktu merenggutnya darimu, sama mendadaknya. Segera tanpa kau sadari, hal itu telah mengusang dimasalalu. Ketika kau mengingatnya akankah menjadi kebalikannya pula? Menjadi hal yang melegakan setelah kau berhasil melewatinya atau justru malah hanya sanggup membuatmu merasakan pisau yang melukaimu itu sekali lagi. Pilihan kedua kebanyakan yang kita rasakan, kurasa.

Long time no write...

Location : My dad's room (coz the internet cable is here)
using dad's laptop
Country : Gombong, Indonesia
Time : my tab's clock is saying it's 01:00 am
Date : July 13, 2014

Hmmm... so.. it's been so long since i live in Solo.. rite? haha.. 

No no no,, I always diligently writing my life story in a diary, but could not move it to the blog because I was too busy and poor signal in the dorm.

What made me want to write again?

because i got an advice from my dad in this holiday. He said :

'Bapak baca diary-mu loh...kapan di update lagi di blog?

Tulisanmu bagus banget seperti baca novel aja...hihihi'

oh wow!! i was so totally surprised and shame.. i would never think that my dad would ever read my diary.. and to give a comment like that? that's just.. wow,ooops,aaaw,aigooo... hehe.. I do not know what I feel.

so it got me thinking, why not? why not start writing again? it's so funny because back home i used to write so much even though my life was ordinary and nothing much really happened..

but here, living the life of my life, seeing new cultures, world, and experience. Why haven't i write anything about it?????.. :( oh Ria, what a pity,ey??

so let me start......

BUAT BLOG LAGI

Location : My sister's room
Country : Gombong, Indonesia
Time : 02:00 am
Date : July 10, 2014

Hei...hei...guys

Ria buat blog baru nih :)

Gak baru juga sih, ini blog terlahir sejak lama tapi gak terawat.

Jadi saya renovasi lagi.hehe...

Horeee akhirnya,
Akhirnya aku bisa buka account blogku ini,
Sekian lama ku menunggu,
Akhirnya inget paswordnya juga.

Hmmmm, what to write?? What to write??
That many things happened,
yang sangat amat melelahkan tentunya..hehe

Pengin aja nulis-nulis lagi,

Menulis segala yang belum sempat tertulis, ingin ditulis, dan harus ditulis.wkwkwk,

Karena yang tertulis akan abadi dan yang terucap mudah sirna.

Maka menulislah!!! Halaaaah..

Maybe blog ini akan menjadi curahan hati, catatan hidup, rekam jejak perjuangan hidup Ria yang menarik.hehe...

My feelings, my thoughts, my future, my past, my present,. Hehe...

Buat siapa aja yang baca. Hope you enjoy it!

Maybe learn something from it! Hehe,,

Peace, always...